The Evolution of Social Interactions

As time goes on, the more I question the value of my friendships. Being a person surrounded by so many friends, how do I remain so lonely. Not to say I don't like my solitude just wondering how its possible. I mean I literally have about 5-6 circles of friends. Thats my best friends, my college friends, my church friends, my coworkers (new and old), miscellaneous and mutual friends and my boyfriends to say the least....Im surrounded by so much love and support but yet its painful to call people sometimes. I normally hate phone conversations unless i'm speaking to a lover i'm comfortable having a phone conversation with. Its ironic how I can speak for hours on the phone with a lover but dread speaking hours on the phone with a relative or friend. Unless the conversation is really intriguing, I just can not enjoy it. Maybe I'm deflecting my friends. My sister unlike me is able to randomly call friends and relatives and just speak. Its not that I don't like speaking because I Can Ramble! (As you can see) But Id rather do the talking in person. In my lifetime, I will make it my responsibility to understand the evolution of social interactions. As technology becomes more advanced, the way we value our friendships will be altered and I am interested in discovering why. Meanwhile, I sometimes cry myself to sleep with bottled up emotions that im afraid of sharing because of past experiences with judgement. This is torture of the worst kind.